As you can see, things are shifting a bit here! I've decided that I am done being irritated and bored with myself. I am formulating a plan! Step one is changing the look of my blog (although it is far from done, I'm just testing the waters in the land of colour!)
Step two is the biggest part of my plan. Some time ago someone (I can't remember who so let me know if you can so I can credit them properly!) suggested that people do a 21-day challenge. Lots of people did it and I was really impressed with their tenacity and their ability to follow through. I have a funny view of myself and I thought I'd better not sign up because there was no way that I would be able to do it. Ugh. I know. More about this in a moment.
Two months ago Thea introduced me to The Secret. It's a book and a DVD and it is all about getting what you want. By following a few steps and making a few commitments, it says that your life will change. Well I watched it and I have had amazing things happen since then. (Unexpected income!!!!) Today, though, I was thinking about it in the context of what I really want and I had a serious talk with myself. At times I have very limited thinking. I hold a lot of fear and worry and anxiousness about a lot of things. I tend to view myself in terms of those emotions a lot of the time. When I was watching it today again this quote jumped out at me:
"If you want to change your circumstances you must change your thinking."
Guh. It was like a smack on the side of the head. I'd read it before. I think it was Oprah who said, "If you always do what you've always done, you'll always get what you've always got." Today for some reason a light bulb went off in my head. What I have been doing so far has not gotten me to where I want to be. Despite me throwing all kinds of energy towards them, I have not gotten to where I want to be. Clearly what I have been doing in the past ISN'T WORKING. I need a radical shift in thinking. I need to do something different to get something different.
A few months ago, Laini and Alexandra talked to me about the advice that they got at the SCBWI conference that they went to. The biggest advice that they shared with me was, "Write the Damn Book." Besides being great writing advice, boiled down to a metaphor what that means is quit talking about it and DO IT. Get your ass in gear. What do you want? Well then get started.
So here's my plan. On February the 8th I am going to put myself on a 21 Day Challenge. I am going to focus my attention on what I REALLY WANT and every single day I am going to take an action that will get me there. I am going to ask you to hold me accountable, dear friends and readers. If I do not post about it, please ask me about it. I am going to try to post every day I am able. If anyone else would like to join me in a 21 Day, "Write the Damn Book" Challenge (metaphorically speaking or not) please do!
"I feel my boots
trying to leave the ground,
I feel my heart
pumping hard. I want
to think again of dangerous and noble things.
I want to be light and frolicsome.
I want to be improbable beautiful and afraid of nothing,
as though I had wings."