This week's Sunday Scribblings is about the books I would write. It's not about the books I WILL write - that is the difficulty. As I sit in my office, there is a filing cabinet behind me. In the third drawer (my drawer) there are a number of files with titles on them and notes inside. These files are eventually going to be my books. A slightly superstitious sort, I tend to want to accept ideas from the universe. I don't want to have a wonderful idea for a book and then see it in a year written by someone else, so I write the idea down as soon as it comes to me. I feel that by capturing it as it floats by on the ether that it can now be mine. The universe won't give the idea to someone else who was paying better attention. No one else will write my books.
So this slightly neurotic tendency causes me some concern as I sit here to write about the books I WOULD write. I tend to accept any idea as it goes by so I rarely think about the ideas as something I would like to do in another life. Having said that, as I sit here, two books have floated by my head as I wonder what I would write - I have seen one of them clearly (which is rare, I don't usually 'see' things.) It is a book about beauty.
I think that I am addicted to beauty. I would love to write a book that captures the feelings that you get when you experience the beautiful - not beautiful in the sense of a pretty woman - beautiful in the sense of the world, your experiences, the feelings associated with the perception. I would love to write a book about beauty as a verb. I want to write words that help people to experience the shift in focus that you need to really see that there is so much beauty around them. The trouble is, I see that book being made up of my words, but also of beautiful artwork - swirls of purples and pinks and greens and sparkle and expression that my unexercised art ability would have trouble bringing into the world. I do not feel up to the artistic challenge of that book. So that is the book I would write if I felt I could do it justice.
P.S. I know that I posted the photo before, but I just love it and I thought as I was writing about beauty that it was a good choice!