Saturday, March 18, 2006

the Seeker

"Listen to the mustn'ts, child. Listen to the don'ts. Listen to the shouldn'ts, the impossibles, the won'ts. Listen to the never haves, then listen close to me... Anything can happen, child. Anything can be." - Shel Silverstein

I found this image on this site a little while ago. I loved her right then and there and I have been coming back to her ever since. Yesterday I read Jamie's post and was inspired to get this girl out again. She is a card from an absolutely beautiful tarot deck created by Joanna Colbert.

In her post, Jamie talked about looking at a certain card and deciding what it means to you. Well this card really resonated with me when I first saw her. I had it open on my computer yesterday and when Mark saw it he said, "aww... it's you!" So I guess I wasn't far off in my reaction to it!

Every time I do a personality test or other sort of life-path kind of thing, I always end up with the answers being that I am a seeker: that I look for the deeper meanings in things and in life. I agree with that completely. I think I over-analyze things sometimes, but I love the idea of the journey, of understanding what it is that we are here to do. I love that by connecting with people and places we can come to understand them a little better. I love coming to realize that we are not alone in how we are feeling.

During the past few weeks I have realized this more deeply. On the surface we are so different, but when I asked you, "What do you WANT?" You answered me with passion and honesty, and striking similarities. We all want to be allowed to want things for ourselves. We all want to understand why we feel the way we do, but we also want to be able to let go of the past. We want our families and friends to be healthy and safe and to be good people. We want to feel good in our skins and our clothes. We want to be comfortable in ourselves. We want to be safe. We want to follow our bliss. We want to be recognized. We want to be seen, heard, and understood.

I love the image on this card because it speaks to me of who I am right now. I love the image of the butterfly on her shirt, the way she packed light, the way that she has guides going with her. I love that the path ahead of her isn't easy, but it is stunning and rich and lush. But I also think that I love what else I know is there. Beside her and behind her and ahead of her there are other people walking paths of their own; packing their own loads, taking their own steps, wearing different clothes. I may not always see them, but now I know that they are there, and that is making all the difference.

"He who cannot howl, will not find his pack." - Charles Simic

15 comments:

Alexandra S said...

Beautiful Megg! I think that to be a seeker such as yourself you truly have to be blessed with an eternal and abundant sense of curiosity, and I see that so much in all your writings- a wide-eyed, bright, vibrant, and deeply genuine searching self and I'm so glad that you know share your soul meanderings with all of us here. And its true, we are far more alike in the end than different. Its too bad that as societies we can't pour our focus on remembering ths more often.
P.S. You have a real email coming soon too!

liz elayne said...

oh i have just exclaimed out loud with delight about this quote by Charles Simic. yes, yes, yes. i think i need to spend some time howling...even though it scares me to think about it, it sounds delightfully like what i need to start doing...

your words resonate with me so much. i read the post again and little tears sting the back of my eyes. this is it for me too. knowing that i do seek more; the questions behind the questions as my teacher says. knowing that i am not alone in this (and i think i kind of thought that i might feel alone about this aspect of myself forever.) with your post today i realize that in some ways i was spending so much time in the loneliness and not recognizing that people "like me" might be out there or even trying to find them. thank you for understanding this meg...thank you.

chest of drawers said...

OH YES!!!! We´re here every step of the way. In the end we might just all end up in the same place and look back on this wonderful journey to ourselves!

Bohemian Girl said...

for some reason, i welled up with tears reading this.

it really moved me. i resonated with your reaction to this picture. i felt the same emotions when gazing at it (perhaps would have felt even more if her braided hair was brunette...*grin*).

in this picture, on this path...i am around the bend...come meet me for lunch.

Karen said...

Beautiful Meg, just beautiful. xoxo

Karen said...

I'm sorry, because I have to write another comment. That really is you. It really is.

tara dawn said...

What an amazing picture...and your words here are so refreshing and ring so true in my soul. We all are indeed walking our different paths, and yet we walk similar ground, we take similar journeys, and none of us is truly alone.
I am so blessed to have found such a kindred spirit as you...you are truly a gift Meg!
Love, love,
TD

Living Part Deux said...

Finding an actual semblance of your truest self. What a gift. And how perfectly you described the reasons she resonates with you. I am so enjoying getting to know you.

Jamie said...

What a great way to see into your spirit. What a great image! I love how she has a sense of peace and ease about her and is also ready for adventure. What a wonderful combo.

I also enjoyed your insights into what we all want, what we all share. You have a really sensitive way of seeing and expressing. What a gift.

vicci said...

Hi Megg....Thanks for stopping by my blog....this is my 1st visit to yours also...I love it! I love the pictures you posted..and speaking of the outlander series...Isn't "Jamie" to die for?????

la vie en rose said...

the last paragraph gave me chills. one of the blessings of this blogging world is finding these women who are on their own journeys and knowing i'm not the only one wanting more, wanting something deeper. i'm there travleing too fellow pilgrim!

Patry Francis said...

wonderful post--and that Simic quote at the end--perfect!

Mardougrrl said...

On the path with you, inspired by your words. Simply wonderful.

Thank you so much for sharing!

JourneyThroughLIfe said...

Hi Megg, thank you so much for sharing such a beautiful post and for bringing to our attention the amazing tarot website. I've just been there and did the oracle page. Very insightful!
JTL
xxx

Deb R said...

I collect tarot decks and Joanna's is my favorite. I'm so looking forward to when she completes an entire deck instead of the majors-only.

I love the quote at the end of this post!