Well, day flowed into day, my emails piled up and I got further and further behind and I found that I wasn't able to do myself this small favour. Self care went onto the to-do list underneath several emails I still owe (you know who you are and I am still really sorry!) learning the ropes on my new temporary job (that officially started today,) and other things I will not bore myself or you by repeating here. "Ahhhh...." I hear you murmuring as you look at this, "but self-care is the most important thing..." yeah. I know. And you know it too but you also know as well as me that sometimes it is pretty bloody hard work - which defeats the whole purpose in the first place!
So back to the Power Thought Cards. I actually am lucky enough to already own one of these decks. It sits on my desk between my carved wooden duck named Charlie and my notes pile. Every now and then I open up the box and leaf through the cards, hoping for inspiration. At some point I went through and sorted out the ones that I thought were especially pretty. The first card on the top of the deck is always the one that reads, "All is well in my world." (I'll tell you that story another time!) Also tucked into the box is a small piece of paper that has this quote by Rachel Snyder: "Be as healthy, as vibrant, as beautiful, as authentic as you possibly can be, in a way that speaks silently to others, You can be this, too." I like this quote because it is how I really want to live my life.
So ANYWAY, back to the deck. Determined to use the cards the way Kat suggested, I took them out of the box, fanned them out, closed my eyes and picked one. I wasn't sure that I would find that anything would be able to help me care for myself right now, but the card that I pulled absolutely kicked my ass:
"Every thought I think is creating my future."
That really made me stop and think. I've done a lot of thinking and reading about this concept in the past little while and I am intrigued by the whole self-fulfilling prophecy thing. The concept is: if you believe something hard enough, you will see it in your life - good or bad. It's like Dr. Phil saying, "You're fat because you choose to be fat." Lately I've been worrying about so many things. By concentrating on them, am I just perpetuating them? Have I chosen to believe that we are broke? Are my thoughts keeping me overweight? Unpublished? Stuck?
So this week, rather than choosing a different card every day, I am going to work with this one. I am going to focus on choosing to BE as healthy, as vibrant, as beautiful, as authentic as I possibly can be. I am going to pay attention to my thoughts and see if I can see what sort of future I have been creating up to now. By doing that I hope to sort out the old negative beliefs, and allow the new ones to creep in. I want so much in my future. Hopefully by setting the right intentions, it will all be possible.
"You'll see it when you believe it." - Wayne W. Dyer