Sunday, November 30, 2008

change.


"If you can put fear aside, you're unstoppable." -
Janet Hagberg

This is the last day over at Soul Coaching. It has been an interesting month. At the beginning of the month I questioned my own ability to follow through; to show up and to trust myself with this journey, and I am proud to say that I did it. I did show up here at my desk every day. This is huge for me! I am sad about some things. I did not have time to visit everyone on the journey very much, and some days I did the bare minimum required, but I journeyed just the same! (Thank you so much to Jamie for hosting!!)

Today is about celebrating yourself and the changes you have made. I am actually surprised by the profound change that seems to have happened in me. It feels quite fresh and tender and new so I am not going to show it too much light yet, but just know that things are going to change around here! I'm feeling a shift, and that shift is moving me forward in lots of ways.

I have been sitting here for almost an hour writing and rewriting this post. I want to be eloquent and profound, but the only words that keep going through my head are, "I'm done." I keep hearing them no matter what else I try to say. I guess that is the most profound shift. I'm done. I can't explain it more than that. It's not the blog that is done, it's not me that is done, but on so many other things, I am done. It's finished. Stick a fork in me! For a long time I have been about the 'me' part of this blog - about all of my questions - and this month I have had answers. I feel like a chick ready to hatch. I am done being small and worried and unsure. There is no more time for all of that. I'm ready to embrace the 'more' part. Starting right now.

"I am larger, better than I thought, I did not know I held so much goodness." - Walt Whitman

20 comments:

chest of drawers said...

You are larger, better than you thought, we KNEW you held so much goodness! I´m glad you know it now too. Shine on my friend!

einat said...

Megg hi, I have been folloeing your journey through your blog for quite a while now, and you always came across as smart, sensitive, aware, raising questions and doubts we all have - and for that I thank you. I just wanted to say, that although your writing is always wonderful, this post is your best yet, because through the words your beautiful transformation and strength echo so strongly. Good luck on this new path, I'm sure it will be amazing.

Serena said...

May your journey just keep getting better and better....you are a beautiful soul.

love, light and peace,
serena

Paula - Buenos Aires said...

Cheering for you! Enjoy the "more", embrace the "more", live the "more". :)

danette said...

Megg, what a celebration. Funny how words just pop up for us, even when at first they don't make total sense. I can hear the egg cracking! And there you are. Big. Glorious. Done.

Ahh.

I look forward to the future adventures of this chick. ;)

Genie Sea said...

YAY! Look at you all hatched and ready to soar! I look forward to sharing your flight path vicariously :) See that woman jumping up and down waving at you with a huge grin on her face? Yeah, that's me :)

mtnchild said...

You are amazing, now go FLY!!!
Yvette

Fatma said...

Yes to your Light. Yes to living more! I am excited for you and can't wait to hear MORE!

Jamie said...

Yay! I'm celebrating you today, Megg! Yay you for showing up and following through! Yay you for being done! You are radiant!

Frankie said...

Wonderful, Meg!! And, wonderful Meg! Congratulations! Celebrate all that you have done, all that you will do, and all that you are. You are truly an inspiration to us all! Shine on xoxo

Brandi said...

I get it. :-) and it's lovely. and I'm celebrating with you.

wonderful whitman quote by the way!

enchantedartist said...

I like the sense of strength and confidence in your words...Congratulations on completing Soul Coaching. I totally understand what it means to have done this...:)

xo

RubyGirl said...

oh meg,

you are such a source of comfort & inspiration for me!!

pen* said...

hoorah! i am celebrating with you and embarking on my own quest too! maybe we will bump into each other a long the way!
in the meantime: you go girl!

Kirsten Michelle said...

you inspire me, beautiful.

celebrating you and ALL THAT YOU ARE!!!
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox

Sacred Suzie said...

It's just fine to be done. Because on this part of our journey, SC is finished. And it's been wonderful! I think you did very well and am so glad I got to know you even better. So happy you're going to do The Next Chapter!

iGoddess said...

WONDERFUL!!!

i loved this! especially the part about feeling fresh and tender and new, not wanting to show it too much light yet.

it's just so...simple and beautiful and eloquent. sometimes things just need to gestate a while, and you can't rush it. but you can feel it there, slowly breaking the surface.

and it's exciting! i'm excited for you! =)

thanks for visiting. i can see i'll have a lot of fun here! xxoo

Jessie said...

"I am done being small and worried and unsure. There is no more time for all of that. I'm ready to embrace the 'more' part. Starting right now."

Oh my dearness!!! Those words are the words of FLIGHT!!! :) I'm smiling big for you. You are On. Your. Way! :)

Kerstin said...

Much like what you said about my post the other day, Megg, I can FEEL the change here! You don't need 100s of profound words, it is coming through clearly and exactly.

And I can so sympathize with the sense of achievement that comes from actually completing something! I have lost count of the times that I started and abandoned projects, be they photography related, or a diet, or anything really that required some discipline and 'showing up'.

Here is to being done. You are a wonderful inspiration.

xo

Amber said...

Those are great words at the end, here. Well, all of them. I feel excited for you.

:)